romance
So, sometimes, I get into these “little introvert world projects” where I obsessively work on something specific, that I thought of randomly, that feeds me with this pure kind of exhilarating joy. Like, infectious, giggling out loud, time is absolutely irrelevant kind of tunnel-vision joy.
I have this wickedly witty Oracle/Tarot card deck, The Audacity Deck, and when I drew the two cards, below, I immediately HEARD the following:
(for The Zero of Fucks): “I don’t give a fuck. God sent me here to piss the world off.”
(for The Two of Deez): “So bow down, on both knees, smoke trees *and two of deez”
Oh, my god, these cards are counterparts!
Eminem and Dr. Dre are counterparts. When you look at their individual stories, and how they energetically found each other, and chose each other, against ALL ODDS, and then changed the world (at least America’s “world” LOL) with their collaborations???? BRUV. We can’t talk about counterpart energy without mentioning these two. Like, what? They totally saved each other. It’s such a fucking adorable story. I deeply believe that they incarnated to display examples of how two opposites can come together and create an entirely new world view.
Not to make it weird, but there are definitely different dimensions where they romantically link up and change the world in another set of a million ways. Our timeline, though… Definitely would not have been the play. Too bad the world is so goddamn slow at learning lessons. Imagine how much farther we’d be in this world if it only took 10 or 20 years for global perceptions to improve.
But, I digress, back to rooomanceeee…
So, obviously, with me being me, the above “card counterpart duo”, with the music association to each card, sent me into like a 4 hour deep dive into matching my Audacity cards with some of my favorite tracks. Mostly hip hop, because hip hop is famously cheeky AND confronting (AND educational *wink), so it fit the vibe. I could have gone ALL NIGHT. Except for my body got sleepy, and I knew I had things to do the next day….
But, again, I digress.
ROMANCE came into play when I was skimming through my little playlist to find a match for the Lover’s Audacity Card. As soon as I saw The Melody, I thought: OH MY GOD THIS IS THE ONE.
The Melody straight up gives me chills (and I get a little teary, actually…) when I listen to it. The vulnerability, the intimacy, the cadence, the PARTNERSHIP. It’s such a bone-warming manifestation of the Divine Masculine. It leaves me speechless as I just surrender to the unfolding of the track, and the story being told:
“When the world starts to rain and thunder, you’re the bridge of support that I go and seek shelter under. From cold winters to the hot summers, you’re the love that I cherish it be, there ain’t no need to wonder.”
I believe that this is how a Divine Masculine and a Divine Feminine interact together, at least that’s how mine will interact with me. I know that our world is full of this opposition and almost a straight up hatred for love, but the energy expressed in this track (and an uncountable number others), is every bit worth fighting for. It’s worth breaking for.
The process of breaking is pretty counter-intuitive, because each break in our rock-solid exterior actually makes us stronger. It reintroduces us to our sensitivity, to our softness, to our desire to connect and be gooey with others. I cherish music like this because it’s presented with such raw and vulnerable emotion, that you can’t help but question your own beliefs that it doesn’t exist. Throughout my life, I’ve learned to really respect when I feel something deeply, especially when it’s yearning. Intensity is my sacred sign that, if I really commit to my path and I do the tough shit healing work to move forward, there is literally nothing I can’t attract into my life…. I just have to be willing to break enough… and rebuild (*tear).
Which brings me to the next lyrics that just makes me bawl:
“I know that at times we done gave each other some drama, but the making up process made me a father.”
OK - brb while I go cry. These words are so fucking beautiful. Confrontation and arguments, and really going “toe to toe” with a loved one can be ugly - especially when our monsters come out - and it feels like shit, (LOL “I like my beats harder than two day old shit”… ok I’m done, I’m done). But, the making up process…. Nothing sweeter. Sex or not, the deliciousness of finding unity and connection after an ugly ass moment, that is something our world needs more of these days. It’s so beautiful, especially when we realize that our monsters are our Allies, and they just want to protect us. Start protecting the other’s monster, and advocate for it’s growth and healing, and you’ll form an unbreakable bond for the duration of this life (and beyond).
But this approach takes two. And that requires each to have their own batch of internal strength and drive. That is the kind of romance I’m open to. One with grit, tenacity, and the willingness to fight through the ugly so we can create something new and exceptional from the ground up.
Ooooowwwwh, Divine Romance be on my miiindd.
***Later edit***
Ok so I was still working on matching the Audacity cards to music, right?
LOOK AT THE SUN CARD!
Obvs perfectly goes with this excerpt from What’s the Difference:
Eminem: I don’t know if I ever told you this, but I love you, dog, I got your motherfuckin’ back. Just know this shit.
Dr. Dre: Slim, I don’t know if you noticed it, but I’ve had your back from day one.
Mother-Fucking-Divine-Counterparts. I swear to God.